Waves of Grief

grief:  deep sorrow, especially that caused by someone’s death.

Oh, how true is this definition!?!?

Today, it has been 6 months since we lost Chris’s mom.  Last week, it was 2.5 years since we lost my dad.

I’ve been having the worst waves of grief hit me at different times lately.

At Thanksgiving, someone was drinking a Dr. Pepper.  This was my dad’s favorite soda!  Seeing that soda made me so sad because I thought to myself that my dad should be here drinking a Dr. Pepper with us.

2 of my cousins announced that they were pregnant at Thanksgiving.  My dad loved babies and all kids!  He would’ve loved his great-nieces or nephews.

The other day when Elizabeth was cheering it was like I could sense in my spirit that Lequeeta was sitting there right next to me like she used to and go on and on about how pretty Elizabeth was and how great she is at cheer.   She probably would’ve made a comment about how short the skirts were too!  LOL

The girls have been super emotional lately about missing Nana.  This is the first birthday Elizabeth had without her Nana and it was rough.

Might seem like “little” things to you all, but until you’ve lost someone so close to you, it’s hard to understand.

I get so sad with just realizing all they are missing out on.  All the memories the girls will never get to have with Papa Tim or Nana.

Losing someone like a parent makes you realize that life is short.  Time is valuable.  You can’t get back the 2 hours you spent on your phone.  Get up, play with your kids.  They will only want you to play with them for so long.

I am praying for all those that are missing a lost loved one today.  I know this holiday season makes the waves of grief come crashing in.

Hold on to the memories you do have of your loved ones and create as many new ones as you can with those still with you.

Have a great Saturday.

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8 thoughts on “Waves of Grief

  1. Grief really does have a way of sneaking up on us when we aren’t expecting it. I can only imagine how hard it must be to have lost a parent.

  2. I am so sorry. We haven’t lost a parent yet, so I don’t know that kind of grief yet. I can only imagine this time of year is extremely hard. Hugs!

  3. Oh, Jen, it’s been 11 years ago Dec. 1st that my Mom suddenly went to be with the Lord and I’ve never stopped missing her. Christmas has never been the same but I go right on because that is what she would want. Blessings abundant to you Jen!

  4. Beautifully said. My dad has been gone for 7 years, and I think of him everyday. I feel him near sometimes, and that helps, and I believe he is watching over me. My 3 year old nephew died with Wilm’s Tumor the day after Thanksgiving 18 years ago so this season is bittersweet as we think of his little life cut way too short. Hope your memories bring you some comfort. Maybe getting an ornament for to represent your dad and your mother-in-law might help make them feel closer this Christmas.

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